I Was In Love

Violet Ivy, 14, USA

I hate when adults tell you that you are too young to be in love because you are just a teenager, and you have your whole life to find the "one." I found him, the "one," the only person that I could ever imagine loving in this world. Before, my life had just stood, empty, and never seemed full.

When he came along, my world just opened up, and I had never been so happy in my entire life. Only he could make me laugh, and only he could make me feel better, and I only listened to him, and he listened to me. Someone actually cared about me.

We'd go on walks together, just to talk, forever. Once we went to the zoo, and we saw a polar bear doing the back stroke, and we shared an ice cream cone, and just sat in the park. I remember once this elderly couple smiled at us,and they had this look in their eyes that was so understanding, it was like they knew the secret, the secret of being...in love.

Someone took me, when I was alone, and had no one, and gave me happiness, and showed me something I could have never imagined.

And then one day, I died. He was just gone. I had lost the only one that had ever meant something to me. The only one that ever cared, or listened. The only one I would have died for.

And I wondered what I had done wrong.

I'd look at the walking trails, along the mountains at dusk, where we used to walk, and I'd cry. I had no one to hold my hand when I crossed the street, no one to steal my Coke and drink the rest of it, no one to just tell me that he loved me.

I'd see a couple, and I'd want to yell out "I know what you feel like! I know the secret! I know how happy you are..." but I didn't, anymore.

I had lost the key to that mysterious secret...it just faded away into nothing.

He wasn't there to share my ice cream cones. When I would play video games, out of habit, I'd hit "two players" instead of one. When I got up to get a glass of water, I'd always turn around just about to ask if he wanted anything, to find no one there. When I wanted to change the channel, I'd hesitate, because he liked control of the changer. When friends asked me how he was doing, I didn't know. When I cried, I had no one to hold me.

I cried alone.